One question is on a constant loop in my mind. It doesn’t matter where I live, what I am doing or how I am feeling. One question assaults me moment by moment, day after day…year after year like the drums heard by The Master in Dr. Who.
“Why are you doing this?”
The question doesn’t even refer to a specific activity. It just hangs there…pestering me for an answer. Why do I go to work? Why do I like steak? Why are hot dogs better than bologna? Why?
I have beaten the budget to death with blog posts attempting (with varying degrees of success) to justify my farming habit. Behind the scenes I have been scouring books, talking to friends (really pestering Matron!), and thinking.
From Gene Logsdon’s Living At Nature’s Pace
My father walked an empty, desolate barnyard, listening for the long-ago songs of life. He heard only a loose sheet of tin roofing, curled over, scratching itself distractedly in the wind. He cried. He cried because he no longer had the energy to keep the barn full of life himself. He cried because none of his children were willing to fill it full of life again. He cried because he could not die here on the farm amidst life, as his forebears had been able to do, but might soon, too soon, have to shuffle off to the country home like his urban counterparts.
That’s certainly part of the answer. I want to be surrounded by life!
Thank you for the reminder.
Wow, that nearly made me cry!
Gene can really put emotion into his words. His books are worth a look if you haven’t yet…
Great post, but it revealed something I couldn’t put my finger on about your…bologna is definitely better than a hot dog 🙂 Depending on the recipe of course, I have had good and bad of both.
Nope. Look, I have given this a lot of thought. You might be right about Northern Spy apples but you are wrong about ground meat product. Give me the choice between a bologna sandwich and a hot dog…hot dog. Put a scoop of chili on top of either and the choice becomes more obvious. My answer may change if we are discussing bologna vs. a cold hot dog.
After I commented here I went and ordered his book. Can’t wait for it to arrive! Thanks for the recommendation:)
The chapter called “An Ecologically Sane Farm” is my favorite. I would like my farm to be described as he describes that one.